This week has been interesting. I started this blog because I wanted to find a way that I could share my thoughts and have someone learn from them. It has been an interesting process thus far and have wondered;
Am I really cut out for this? 
As I learn how to blog these thoughts, it is a huge learning curve. I want to be respectful and make sure I am honoring anyone that I take information from, I want to make sure I am respectful of information I have learned from, and I want to make sure that I come from an authentic place and try to be as real as possible.
I have said this before, I do not think that people need to reveal all their past to be able to share what they know now and what they think for the future. What stories people want to share, needs to be their stories and their choice.
Once shared then…
I am learning and I logically realize that it is ok to make mistakes. I can learn from other mistakes as well which keep me moving forward and taking those small risks. It still is very difficult however, to step out and take those small risks.
Why? What is it I am afraid of?
I have never thought of myself as someone with an extremely high IQ,
I do though, have a way of being able to think about thinking.
You are your thoughts?
I’ve said this before. Probably starting to get repetitive. I think I will continue to repeat saying it because I believe that it is…
“Our thoughts that create our character.
Thoughts create feeling
Feeling creates action
Action creates results”
I find myself curious about how I forget to capture the right thought to continue giving me the positive results I want and so I am trying to figure out why? When I feel overwhelmed, how can I calm the heck down?
Where do those thoughts of needing to make sure everything is done or I’ll be judged come from?
AND…. A big AND,
why the heck does it really matter? 
So for me I try to answer this question with it matters because when everything is done, I feel productive, and when I feel productive, I feel encouraged and when I feel encouraged, I feel confident, and when I feel confident I don’t feel like a failure.
Whoa…ok reread, and Ill try and translate below.
3 things I try to live by
These are 3 things I am trying to live by and that help keep me focused on my goals and help me enjoy the journey as I find my way.
1. Always Try
*Show up every day and try 1 new thing no matter how small. When you’re young and have a problem and it’s hard, try to remember to take your time, stay calm, and ask for help. When we are older and we have a problem, instead of complaining about the problem, how about looking for a solution.
2. Be consistent
*If you are showing up every day then you can stay consistent. Perseverance is key. Sometimes just showing up is hard, and if just showing up is all you can do right now, that’s a start. One step forward and ask yourself the big questions.
For example, instead of asking yourself “omg why is this happening to me, why is this always my fault, why can’t I do this?” ask yourself
“How can I learn from this experience, where can I improve, who can I ask for help?”
3. Never give up
*Remember actions create results. If it’s positive results you want then you need positive thoughts to create those results.
Now I am going to ask myself, what would happen if I didn’t get everything done?
Nothing
Nothing would happen and so it really is up to me to have growth at the pace that lets me remain positive and continue to move forward.
I may not think I was productive, so does that make me a failure?
ABSOLUTELY NOT!
Again, you are your thoughts
Simply put, feeling productive and thinking you’re productive are 2 different categories.
Just because you feel you didn’t do everything in your expectation list doesn’t mean you are a failure so why would we think so?
You are in control of your thoughts and in control of changing those thoughts to make them what you want.
Obviously you want to be productive, growth mindset and that means growth. For growth to happen you need to take risks. Small maybe, but in order to grow you need to have some of those feelings of fear. So Making your to do list so that it is obtainable yet has a goal and time frame, then it forces you to take those tiny risks to have growth.
Remember confidence comes from our thoughts not the environment or something we are doing. It is how we think about ourselves and our perception of ourselves.
Annnnnnnd…..
The Time Connection Project, my relationship with the clock.
I am working on this and so moving forward I will be looking at ways to take this on. My hopes is that some of you will start with me and share your experiences as we move forward in our new normal.
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Stay real, stay positive. cheers
